Today

Today I am lost in thought.

I am emotional but in a numb way. 

There are no more tears.

Today my heart is full.

I do not plan to leave for two years but those of you that have made that choice inspire me and set such a great example of service.

Today I could use a nap.

These sleepless nights and early mornings are adding up.

Today I decided that I need to make some changes in my life.

Being sad is exhausting. 

I need a confidence boost so I'll be getting back to working out everyday.

I will take every opportunity I can to serve someone else.

I will not let my pride get in the way of my heart and my future.

Today the sky is grey. 

Ed Sheeran's "Autumn Leaves" plays on repeat.
Today I wonder when I will find love.
It's not something I am looking for but I can't help but wonder when and how it will happen.
Today I said goodbye but I'm not letting go.